Just 8 weeks to go, can’t wait now, and a lot has happened since my last blog!
The expected long-easy runs have not featured as much yet, often due to XC races, and perhaps not enough as there has been a 12, a 14 and had to abandon a 16 at 13 miles having been taken ill. Couldn’t work out what was going on as I got colder and colder and slower and slower as my run buddy, Amy, got more worried and convinced me (“...can’t stop yet, need to do the miles...” and other such helpful comments from me!!!) to stop early calling my partner, Debs, out to collect us. Nearly passed out on the run, in the car and actually did go for 1.5 mins at home...unhelpfully, in the bath! Turned out to be gastric flu and I was actually soooooo pleased to realise I was ILL! Not a problem with nutrition, hydration, sleep or over training. A few days off work, and an actual rest from any training seemed to do me the world of good and I’m now nicely back on training plan without trying to “catch up”.
Why renewed? Well, to be able to do what I am planning to do with running in 2015 I have had to change things in my life as there just isn't time for everything with a very demanding job:
1. Was to stop racing karts with Club100 as my feet and legs now have too much invested in them to risk a silly crash.
2. Was I went “dry” in January and, by and large, that continued into Feb with just a couple of drinks in the month. April will certainly be “dry”
3. The big and emotional change....two years ago my partner and I started a running club which has grown to nearly 80 runners registered with England Athletics and is mostly made up of great, positive and friendly people. In any group like this you get the detractors, “takers”, under-miners, the “loud voices” who’s own opinion has to be seen to be more important than the majority. I’ve held it all together as Chairman, Secretary, Membership Sec and kit-man, with 1-2 others, for so long that it just became a massive boulder that I was pushing up an increasingly steep hill. Lots of people had been saying for ages that I should step away from all the negativity and concentrate on training, racing and my “awesome year”. Hard to do when so much time, effort, hard work and emotion have gone in but I’ve done it. Hopefully, the club will move on to a stronger place but such clubs rely on volunteers and the “Jury is out” on whether people will really stand up to their promises. Something I saw today rings true about my thoughts on some people who have made my life so difficult... “Never apologise for trusting your intuition – your brain can play tricks, your heart can blind, but your gut is always right”. Lightweights will always be lightweights!
Whilst, in many ways, this has been a positive step it drained me emotionally and running just had many negative feelings attached it. If it hadn’t been for the London Marathon and raising money to help Leukaemia and Lymphoma Research fight and beat blood cancers then I would have stopped running altogether! It has take an few, fantastic, trusted people and some enjoyable runs like cross country races and my training plan to get me mentally back on track. Totally out of character, in running terms it is now all about me and doing the best job round the streets of London, and raising that money.
So, a bit of a roller-coaster, but now really positive. I know what I enjoy with running, I know what I want to achieve for others and me and I know who I can trust and who gives me great support...like Debs, Amy, Libby, some great guys from the Club, Full Potential, L&LR and my brill sports physio, Vicki, from The Body Reset Clinic.
Just eight weeks to go to VMLM2015, and I absolutely can’t wait!
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