Well, I made it, day 10 of first cycle. However instead off being pleased I feel down as I now know I've got 2-3 weeks in here. With the chemo it feels like there's a purpose to being here. Now I'm worried that without it I'm just going to sink into the blues. It's not helped by 1 consultant saying 2 weeks and another saying3! I know I'm prone to infection now and I know I need to be here but the thoughts not being there for my girl's 4th birthday makes me feel sad.