I had a small rash on my arm. I was healthy, go to the gym twice a week. Fantastic career and 2 beautiful girls. Amazing friends and family, for 2014 about to go for promotion in work (Currently a sales manager for Cellar Trends -champagne/wine/spirits distributors based in Derby). Life was brilliant!
Dec 2013 -
My rash is worse, fevers, night sweats !! so I go to local GP and I am told that I have allergies! So I had steroids prescribed to me which gave some rest for about a week. But by Christmas my symptoms came raging back. I was covered all over my body with this awful rash and yet I was still being told I had allergies, they even said I had scabies !! So I was very poorly, I had not slept in my bed for 2 months and I was having 2 hours sleep each night !! The itching kept me awake, it was so intense and nothing was helping. I was still working hard and living my life as normal as I can.
Jan 4th-2014 -
My neck is huge! It was suddenly all swollen, I thought that I looked like a monster!. My glands were so swollen. I go to GP (again) yet I am still told its scabies! I thought that it was getting ridiculous so I decide to go to hospital and my life changed forever from that moment....
Dr Thomas a consultant (A fantastic man),who does not specialise in blood cancer, took one look at me and then I knew something serious was wrong. I knew something serious was about to erupt and it would turn my life upside down. I am good at reading people's emotions. I could tell his look was sad when he approached me. I thought never in a million years cancer would be in my life, however when I looked into his eyes (whilst he was surrounded by all of his students) I knew what it was. I could not say the word (cancer). I drew the letter 'C' with my finger in the air when I asked him and he nodded yes. He sat on my hospital bed, held my hand and said yes I think you have lymphoma blood cancer....
My whole world froze. I never cried I don't cry...
But why me? I asked myself so many times. I am 41. I have life to live, I have to bring up my girls. I am independent, I have dreams, I have a world to see!
Dr Thomas then went on the path to get all my tests booked and he arranged all my scans himself!. He even booked me to see a haematologist in advance. He knew. He knew I was serious about my illness so why didn't my GP feel the same? She has apologised to me and I do not blame anyone. I just wish I was not so trusting with the advice they gave me and I should have pushed for more tests.
Would my outcome be better? If she did tests in Nov 2013? I will never know now. One thing I don't do Is beat myself up over it.
Will continue next phrase soon as so much has happened in 4 months.
Keep fighting everyone!