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Leanne Kidd - The start of how my life got changed forever

Leanne K
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04 May 2014

November 2013-

I had a small rash on my arm. I was healthy, go to the gym twice a week. Fantastic career and 2 beautiful girls. Amazing friends and family, for 2014 about to go for promotion in work (Currently a sales manager for Cellar Trends -champagne/wine/spirits distributors based in Derby). Life was brilliant!

Dec 2013 -

My rash is worse, fevers, night sweats !! so I go to local GP and I am told that I have allergies! So I had steroids prescribed to me which gave some rest for about a week. But by Christmas my symptoms came raging back. I was covered all over my body with this awful rash and yet I was still being told I had allergies, they even said I had scabies !! So I was very poorly, I had not slept in my bed for 2 months and I was having 2 hours sleep each night !! The itching kept me awake, it was so intense and nothing was helping. I was still working hard and living my life as normal as I can.

Jan 4th-2014 -

My  neck is huge! It was suddenly all swollen, I thought that I looked like a monster!. My glands were so swollen. I go to GP (again) yet I am still told its scabies! I thought that it was getting ridiculous so I decide to go to hospital and my life changed forever from that moment....

Dr Thomas a consultant (A fantastic man),who does not specialise in blood cancer, took one look at me and then I knew something serious was wrong. I knew something serious was about to erupt and it would turn my life upside down.  I am good at reading people's emotions. I could tell his look was sad when he approached me. I thought never in a million years cancer would be in my life, however when I looked into his eyes (whilst he was surrounded by all of his students) I knew what it was. I could not  say the word (cancer). I drew the letter 'C' with my finger in the air when I asked him and he nodded yes. He sat on my hospital bed, held my hand and said yes I think you have lymphoma blood cancer....

My whole world froze. I never cried I don't cry...

But why me? I asked myself so many times. I am 41. I have life to live, I have to bring up my girls. I am independent, I have dreams, I have a world to see!

Dr Thomas then went on the path to get all my tests booked and he arranged all my scans himself!. He even booked me to see a haematologist in advance. He knew. He knew I was serious about my illness so why didn't my GP feel the same? She has apologised to me and I do not blame anyone. I just wish I was not so trusting with the advice they gave me and I should have pushed for more tests.

Would my outcome be better? If she did tests in Nov 2013? I will never know now. One thing I don't do Is beat myself up over it. 

Will continue next phrase soon as so much has happened in 4 months. 

Keep fighting everyone!  

Leanne xxx 

 

 

 

 

 

Comments

Anonymous
04.05.2014

Keep strong Leanne you will beat this xxxxxxx

Anonymous
04.05.2014

Leanne....Gorgeous lady and old school friend. You are so amazingly positive and brave. You will beat this horrible disease. Stay strong, keep smiling and kick butt. Lots of love and hugz. Jules xxxx

Anonymous
05.05.2014

My super amazing sister who is very brave and we are all very proud of her. Keep fighting little sis xxx

Anonymous
05.05.2014

You are one amazing person Leanne, you sound a strong positive person, you have a lot of love around you, so keep strong and keep fighting x x x

06.05.2014

Hi Leanne, I'd like to echo others comments by saying keep strong and be positive. Judging by others comments it also looks like you've got a strong support network behind you which will certainly help. Keep us updated and all the best with your treatment.

Ellie Dawes
06.05.2014

You are amazing Leanne, thank you so much for writing this. Welcome to the site.

Anonymous
07.05.2014

It is so great to see your fighting spirit and attitude to life still burning bright! Definitely keep strong - thinking of you often big hugs xx
Nicole

Anonymous
08.05.2014

Keep strong and positive hugs to you and family xxxx

Anonymous
10.05.2014

Best wishes and heartfelt support for the fight you and your girls have ahead.

Anonymous
10.05.2014

I have two types of lymphoma (Follicular and Large diffuse B cell) and much the same as you they were misdiagnosed firstly as chronic fatigue syndrome and then the second one as a hernia. Living with cancer is a hard road to tread but in some ways the experiences I had got through in my life had got me well prepared. Looking at your facial expression my instincts tell me you have got through a lot in your life already and are a fighter and you will handle this with the same success you have handled everything else so far. I wish you luck but have no doubt that no one could deal with what you are going through better than you. Best wishes, Paul X

Anonymous
10.05.2014

I have the same lymphoma and I am getting ready to have a stem cell transplant-you do what you have to stay alive.

Anonymous
10.05.2014

It's never over til it's over.cancer is fought not by the body,but the mind.you have everything to live for........cancer has nothing worth fighting for.it can be beaten.stay strong,believe in your heart you will get better,and kick this thing into touch where it belongs.my thoughts are with you and your family.now go fight this thing !!!!

Anonymous
10.05.2014

Well done for remaining positive and turning your shattered world into something that we can all learn from. I wish you every possible chance for a full recovery.

Anonymous
10.05.2014

Leanne good Luck my darling , i was diagnosed with nhl grade 4 is Sept 2011 , after being ill for 12mnths , i had to crawl on my hands and knees to go to the loo as i couldn't stand upright , i had a tumour pressing on my spine which collapsed two vertebrae , i am now 2yrs post chemo , back in work and enjoying family life with my three children and hubby , life is good , my advice …..one min,hour,day at a time . I too, do not look back but forward . Take Care lots of cwtch's
Rachael (from Wales)

Anonymous
10.05.2014

Keep on Keeping on... That what us mothers do. Im on a Journey also with Melanoma. Also have two beautiful teenage girls. a single mum. Wouldn't change anything, enjoying each day.... Keep strong girl friend xo

Anonymous
12.05.2014

Stay strong and keep a positive mental attitude wish you the best!!!

Anonymous
29.05.2014

Stay positive leanne. I also had the same as you and I am nearly at my 2 year milestone x

01.07.2014

I have just been repsonding to tweets and read your blog as a result of seeing a post from Carly Pitman about the fundraiser this Friday... thank you for sharing your story with us. Wishing all you and your family all the best Leanne.