So off St.John went to James cook – now this is only what St.John told me I wasn’t there!!! He went and provided his sample then had to make some decisions. The sperm is stored for 10 years but he had to make a decision about – if he died because of the cancer – would I still be able to use it? He said No – not because he didn’t want me to use it but he though I wouldn’t have (I wouldn’t – personally I would not have had St.Johns child without him). He felt slightly bullied into agreeing to allow me to use it and signed that I could. He told me this when he came home and I promised him – if something happened to him I wouldn’t use – a decision I still stand by (a personal choice and I know you will not all agree with me), but I respected him too.