In the current economic climate, it is not really surprising that in my place of work they have announced a Voluntary Exit (VE) scheme & for most people I can see that if the terms are good, it’s not a bad thing to do. For a cancer patient, the situation is rather more complex than looking at the proposed payout and making a valued decision upon whether it is sufficient to live on whilst looking for a new job. You see, in my workplace, I am a member of a company pension scheme, which includes provision for a Death in Service payout to my dependents - in other words life cover that I cannot get elsewhere! Additionally, my current job gives me sick pay for 12 months – 6 months at full pay followed by 6 months at half pay which I am unlikely to get in a new company until I have worked there for a few years & how am I supposed to know how my health will be?
I should imagine that taking voluntary exit is a no brainer for some but VE for me means taking a much longer-term view, which I find extremely difficult as a cancer patient. Some of my previous blogs have touched upon living, as opposed to just existing & some would encourage me to take the money & run & have a blast doing it! Trouble is, I have to plan for as many potential eventualities as possible, whilst resisting the temptation to sit there & say “What if?” It’s a very strange way to think & yet another challenge to my mindset.
Sometimes I think back nostalgically to the days before cancer and whilst I know it wasn’t ever as easy as I remember it being, life did seem more straightforward then. Cancer shapes your life in so many ways …….